Weird flashback no. 3598458

Something I’ve forgotten for years literally just came flooding back to me for no apparent reason.

When I was 14 the girl who I was in love with, back in the days before she violently protested she was SUPER SUPER STRAIGHT LIKE OMG WHY DOES EVERYONE THINK I’M A HOMO?!?!?!!111 etc etc, I swear there was a time where she insisted she had a male persona. Like she told me his name and all about him, and she kept asking if I believed her and what I thought. I remember being really weirded out but at the same time I was open minded (and hey I was just discovering the heterosexual normative world was breaking apart under my feet) and so I told her I believed her. But I don’t think I really knew how to talk about it because I didn’t want to upset her. She had a lot of fucked up issues at the time, seemingly beyond what even myself as Miss Bulimic Binge Eater experienced so it was a difficult thing to process back then.

Strange teenage phase or mental illness symptoms or some kind of actual genderqueer dysphoria coming out there? Guess I’ll never know…

It seems so distant and uncanny that I’m wondering if I’ve just made all that up, but then that’s also precisely the feeling that makes it feel so real.

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